The year of 2011 has encouraged a lot of reflection of the past 12-ish years. Tonight in particular. For those of you who don't know, 1999 was a transformative year for me... at the time it was an emotional & excruciatingly painful shift (for the worse) that actually seeped far past the year of 1999. But God used that year & the years following to ultimately transform my life for the better.
I have been reckless. Reckless with this precious life that has been gifted to me & reckless with the love that has been so selflessly given. I tend to think of myself as unbreakable. Maybe it's all the crap I've been through, but I often speed through life without giving a second thought to the risk involved, to who might be hurt, to who should be consulted. I'm that kid who asks for forgiveness after the fact instead of asking for permission. Yep, I forge ahead with my own ideals, planning a life that isn't mine to plan. I'm so "trigger happy" when it comes to decision making that I don't realize that I'm being reckless until a consequence arises. Which, of course is when I turn to God for assistance.In it's basic form, I am the epitome of IMPATIENCE. I have been allowing my heart to deceive me instead of waiting upon the Lord for guidance & strength. I have indulged in worldly foolishness instead of allowing the Lord to direct me in His Master Plan.Today I plan on combating that selfishness, that impatience, with ONE WORD. The ONE WORD Challenge is a resolution of sorts (although I don't make resolutions!). You choose ONE WORD to LIVE OUT AUTHENTICALLY in the upcoming year. It is intended to "focus on your character and create a vision for your future."I found out about this through a new blog I follow: An Idol Heart. The idea instantly resonated with me & I decided to participate. I've been pondering the idea all day and as a somewhat verbose individual I found it quite a challenge to narrow it down to ONE WORD! I grappled with making my own rules & changing it to ONE PHRASE but that just doesn't sound right. ONE WORD it is and once I found it, there was no looking back.So without further ado, my ONE WORD 2011 is: YIELDTo YIELD is to SURRENDER. To SUBMIT. To CONCEDE. To GIVE OVER POSSESSION OF.It should be pretty obvious by now what God is requiring of me. I will remain in expectation & pray for the desires of my heart to be aligned with God's will for me, but I will give up control. He is in charge & for once in my life I will actually LET Him be! I have no doubt that this will be a challenge. It is in my stubborn, "Type A" nature to want to have my hands in everything, but it is not my place. I am on a journey. I have a destination. I will find joy in the journey & find comfort in the fact that He has a perfect plan in mind, just for me. There is nothing wrong with waiting, with patience, with YIELDING. God is telling me to slow it down and I am listening.
“We must be willing to get rid of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting on us.” ---Joseph Campbell